I am an ordinary mother of four daughters, the oldest in college and three teenagers attending nearby public school. I homeschooled them for 16 years, and did the usual church volunteer thing during this time while staying home and supporting my Air Force husband. I drive a mini-van and I just bought my first house. I love cats, with four currently occupying my heart and home. I have never been fond of reptiles, but my daughter is, so we recently acquired a snake named Percy. He is growing on me (not literally). I refuse to hold him...yet.
At the same time I am not so much an ordinary mom of four daughters. Their father recently died of alcoholism and I am trying to figure out who I am in all of this. We were married 21 years, divorced 9 months, and I am now the executor and beneficiary of his estate. I feel like a widow. The pain is deeper than anything I have ever experienced.
My passion is writing. Pouring out my thoughts on paper and on the keyboard. I am most uncomfortable speaking in public, and telephone conversations make my head spin, but my mac and me are the best of friends and together we find our own melody and sometimes even create literary symphonies.
I completed my BA in psychology and hope to pursue my graduate degree soon. Drug and alcohol abuse claimed 2 lives dear to me, and I believe that an undiagnosed mental illness was behind each one of these tragic deaths. Near and dear to me are those who struggle with psychic pain. Because of my sister's suicide, a legacy was left and her daughter/my niece committed suicide as well. This precious girl was my adopted daughter when it happened and the event turned my family upside down in the year 1998. My husband struggled with alcohol the entire time I knew him...24 years...and there has to be a way to break free of that stronghold before it takes hold of an individual to the point of no return.
Today I thrive, my family thrives, because of our trust in the Lord, and with the help of family and friends who have walked beside us...at times behind us...gently keeping us in the faith.
